When God wills suffering?
How can a good God possibly allow suffering?
We pronounce the question with a flourish, smiling smugly on the inside thinking that we’ve finally found ourselves an excuse to doubt Him, or at the very least, justify our bitterness or our desire to run away.
What I realized yesterday is that maybe all along, we’ve been asking the wrong question.
Should God really have to explain Himself to us? Should we only deign to listen to Him only when we understand His plan?
Maybe it isn’t always about understanding why… maybe its about learning how to respond.
Let’s face it. Let’s be real. Sometimes LIFE SUCKS!!!
It seems like recently I have found myself crying a lot… I can’t always tell if it is little stuff or big stuff. Maybe it doesn’t matter. Maybe its just the accumulation of stuff with no chance to breathe in between. Maybe it’s the pregnancy hormones, but maybe its not.
Car accidents really do suck. Insurance companies suck. Broken major appliances suck. Dealing with money issues sucks. Extended family drama sucks. Addictions suck. Self-image issues and parenting troubles suck. Utter exhaustion with no end in sight sucks.
And the list goes on… [insert your troubles here]
This post isn’t going to tell you that what you are dealing with is “not so bad”. It isn’t going to tell you to “buck up”. “roll with the punches”, or “keep your chin up”. This post isn’t here to tell you you shouldn’t be hurting, especially if you have God in your life. This post is to validate you. To affirm your overwhelm. To tell you its ok sometimes to feel like you are drowning.
Because drowning is where everything can finally begin!