I have to recommit every day in order to prioritize my prayer life. This time genuinely sustains my life. It gives me rest, energy and peace. Without it, I can’t imagine what my life would be like.
My marriage definitely wouldn’t be as close.
My parenting wouldn’t even be remotely peaceful – in fact, I know this because I tried it for 5 years before I figured this out.
My mental health would be dangerously unstable – with stress levels off the charts and fear of all life’s “what-if”s and potential negatives sending my hope for the future up in flames.
A strong prayer life is the only thing that keeps me balanced. I know because I haven’t always had it…. But, the closer I grow to Him and the more time I spend with Him, the more the weight of everything else genuinely seems to fade.
My undeniable and unshakable relationship with God is the only thing that gets me through my day. It is the only thing that keeps me going in my current season and in our family’s current state of uncertainty. People call us crazy. No one understands. (If you are interested in more of our story, click here). But, it doesn’t matter. People thought the apostles were crazy and Christ was unaccepted in his hometown (Mark 6:3).
Every time we seek validation or comfort outside of Him, it only serves to stir up the waves. Seeking validation outside of Him merely causes us to waiver in what we know is right. But, when we come back to Him, the peace He offers is deep. It is abiding. It is true. It is guilt free. It doesn’t matter if nothing makes sense in the world’s eyes, He is asking for more. He is asking for everything. He is asking for our widow’s mite (Mark 12:41-44), our 5 loaves and 2 fish so that he can multiply them (John 6:8). He is asking for complete and total faith, trust and abandon to divine providence.
It doesn’t matter if it looks like what God is asking from you sounds crazy, what matters is whether or not your relationship with Him is strong enough to believe that He can make miracles with your littleness.